like a pendulum

"she deserves the 3 'R's. the river, the revolver or the roof. that's what the mob lived by. seems to work for them." ~something mg said in a text today. ha! that girl cracks me up!!

life swings like a pendulum. sometimes its good and sometimes it's hard and confusing. last week, things made more sense. today? not so much. things tend to go all sideways after a bit. and, so i wait. patience is sometimes all i have.

structure

*twirls in a circle* weeeeeeeeeeee!!

geeze... i don't know where to start.

it seems like there is so much going on and it's hard to keep up. but then, sometimes it seems like there is nothing going on and my mind wanders. i feel like i have no structure unless it's the weekend. the weekends have their own routine, but the rest really doesn't.

socially things are going swimmingly. it's been nice to have lunches with the girls and shopping and just general good times with good friends. i'm really starting to like this thing that my life is becoming since my horrid divorce.

i know i was going somewhere with that, but my mom just called and got me all side tracked. she does that sometimes.

we talked about life, mostly mine. also, we talked about my trip. i was planning on taking a trip to see her and the family and to hit vegas with my cousin while i was out that way.

well, after talking to my cousin, we've decided to put that on hold for a while. jobs, money and life are in the way right now. it's just not a good time to take a trip for either of us. and really, i'm not upset about it. there will be plenty of other chances to go another time.

plus, there are heart shaped things that i'm not willing to leave behind right now.

in other news: i'm taking better care of myself. i'm eating better and exercising more. the nice weather we've been having isn't hurting either. i am so happy to be able to go to my regular walking track.

in other other news: it's monday and i'm not on the verge of tears! yay!! monday hates me and usually makes it known. maybe we make this a trend? i think it def helps that i have things to look forward to this week :)

here's something kinda sexy, the color of day by remy shand. i hope you all have a stellar week!!

monday minute: a need for speed

umm... today, i got nothing...

i had an eventful weekend, but we'll get to that later. i still have some more info to collect.
so today is the monday minute. and we have new hosts. exciting!

here it is...






favorite 80s flick?
16 candles was def one of my faves, but princess bride is my A#1. i'm such a geek, that still quote it.

one genre of music needs to be banned. which genre?
i'm a big fan of pretty much everything, but maybe screamo... i don't really dig on all the anger involved with it.

all time favorite candy?
def dark chocolate raspberry creams from see's candies. they're so awesome! and since they're only made in california, my mom sends me a box of them for holidays and special occasions.
*sigh*
she loves me...

how 'flawed' is your driving record?
me, it's not too bad. mostly just sprinkled with speeding ticket... mama's got a need for speed!!

what was your high school mascot?
lions! i was a cheerleader, so i still chant L-I-O-N-S in my sleep sometimes. i know! i'm a lil nutty.

and finally...

what color socks are you wearing?
umm... yeah... that... i work in an office, so no socks. it's black patent leather heels today :)


hope you all have a great week!!

thank you to our hosts heather and melissa!

monday minute: crying would take too long

lest i procrastinate any longer, here is the monday minute...



what was your "oh no, i'm turning into my mom/dad" moment?
i think that was the first time i answered a question with the phrase "because i said so"

what current commercial do you find the most annoying/funny?
ha! the new taco bell commercials are hilarious! "i am de lime..."

it you could only eat one color food for the rest of your life what would that be?
i think brown would work for me. i'm big into protein, beans and meat are brown and so is a&w root beer(my weakness)

what is your current facebook/myspace/twitter status?
facebook/myspace : is restringing her air guitar...
twitter: quote of the day: today is one of those days where i have to laugh... crying would take too long.

f, marry, kill from the list below. women pick from the men, men pick from the women.

• snookie(from jersey shore), ellen degeneres, betty white
• regis philbin, justin bieber, perez hilton
  

hmm... f perez hilton, because he's probably never been with a real woman. marry regis philbin, because duh! he probably spoils his wife. he just seems to have that kind of a personality. and lastly, kill justin bieber, because he's young enough that someday the girl could end up with a crush on him and we just can't have that! i know she's only 4yrs old, but she's already been informed that she can't date until she's married *wink*

so there it is...

thanks to our host ian at the daily dose of reality! hope you all have a great week! it can only get better from here... i hope!

monday minute: aspirations

so... yeah... the force is not with me today... i'm exhausted. i thought i was being all sneaky and catching up on my sleep this weekend, but insomnia caught up with me last night. i hate her! she outstays her welcome EVERY time she comes around... ugh! oh well, maybe i'll get the best of her next time.

so here's the monday minute. crossing my fingers that it makes sense.





describe your life in one word.
complicated

is there something you wish you had learned how to do as a child?
yes, i wish i'd learned how to play the piano. as you know, i'm in love with music. i wish i could do more than just sing.

who has been the biggest influence on your life?
looking back, it was probably the collective of women in my life that have influenced me the most. they've helped me see how it is to be soft and strong and breezy and smart all at the same time.

what is your greatest dream/hope/aspiration?
i can't really say what that is at this point in my life. my hopes and dreams keep changing and growing.


and finally...


do you believe you have reached your potential? why/why not?
no, not at all. i'm def a work in progress. i'm learning and growing every day. that's not going to change anytime soon.

thanks to our host ian over at the daily dose of reality!

now go out there and have a great week!!

p.s. if you run into that b*tch insomnia, would you give her a quick elbow to the sternum? kthanxbai :)

monday minute: what if...

so i'm kinda liking this monday minute business. it's giving me a chance to address different things that i would probably never think to mention. here it is again...



1.who is your "what-if" person?
(What-if person being what if I married this person or am now in a relationship with "this" person)
what if, what if, what if... i guess i can't really choose a specific person. i've had a few relationships that i could say "what if i was still with so-and-so?" but looking back at my life i think more along the lines of "what if i didn't continue that relationship?"

2. what is your nickname?
hmm... other than people calling me babe or mama, i hear 'mommy' all the time. some days i love to hear it and other days i want to change my name. but i think every mom goes through that sooner or later.

3. if you could choose how you would died, how would you like to die?
warm in my bed when i'm old a gray. after i've lived my life and told my stories.

4. if you could have named yourself, which name would you have picked?
probably catherine or samantha, i always liked those names, and everyone always spells mine wrong.

5. who were you named after or for what reason did your parents choose your name?
i wasn't named after anyone, but i was almost named after both of my grandmothers. so my name would have been sarah tiffany. i know tiffany isn't a traditional name, really, but my grandmother's name on my dad's side is epiphania(tiffany in english).

for a monday 'minute', this sure took me a lot longer than a minute to answer today... geeze... where's my focus?! has anybody seen it??


thanks to our host ian at the daily dose of reality!

monday minute: still anonymous

ok, so i decided i'd try something new... mostly because it's NEW, and who doesn't love new stuff?! and also, because the button has yoda on it, so have i must!



what's your real name? sorry cats and dolls, as this is an anonymous blog, that would kinda defeat the purpose, ya know. BUT you can call me cali :)

have you ever fabricated a story or anything on your blog? nope, that's just not my style. everything you read here is real.

when in the car do you listen to the radio/CDs/ipod etc? it depends on what cds are accessible and if i can find anything GOOD on the radio.

describe the 'sexist' item of clothing you own. hmm... that's a good one. i'd have to say this chinese dress that my mom(of all people) bought me. it's silk brocade with a mandarin collar and it goes down to my ankles, but the slit up the side goes almost up to my hip. ooh la la!

would you be willing to breastfeed your friend's three year old child? ha! NO... for a few reasons. a) hello! it's not my kid. b) 3year olds have teeth and c) by age 1 children should be drinking from cups and eating real food.


thanks to our lovely co-host michelle! you can find her at mommy loves stilettos.