it's all about connecting the dots...

i think i need this sign printed for my front door... hahaha...


last week i spent either sick or running around like a crazy person trying to get things squared away for my trip...
yes, i'm going on a trip. after the afore mentioned sucktastic start to my year, i'm going on a girl's trip to vegas next month. i'm so excited about it! it's only gonna be a long weekend, but geeze do i need to get out of my little hole for a couple days. so yay for that!

this weekend was great! friday night i met lb and her kidlets for dinner. it was nice to catch up. i hadn't seen her in a couple of months.
saturday was nice and relaxing. i luxuriated in the fact that i could hang out in my pjs half the day and look at catalogs, or just whatever i wanted to do. i made some awesome salad for lunch and pasta that night that i will be posting about later.

again out of the blue, fr stopped by. we were able to sit down and talk. he's got a lot going on and a lot of things to deal with. i get it now. i feel better about things.

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately about what i have and what i want. while i have male friends and friends that are trying to hook me up with their male friends, i don't think i want that. to elaborate, i don't want a relationship for the sake of being in one.
i'm really starting to see how nice it is to just be me. 'me' is fun and funny and so many other things. i really like that i don't have to cater to anyone else. and how i can do what i want. i like sleeping in my own bed by myself.
yes, it's nice to have someone to come home to and to do all the things that couples do. but like i've said before, everything comes with a price. i know i waiver on this, and i probably will for a while, or at least until i find a situation that i like. i do get lonely and i'm not made of stone, ya know.

oh st valentine!

so yeah... valentine's day this year, was um.. weird/bad. weird because this is the first valentine's day in at least 10yrs that i didn't have an actual valentine. bad, because i spent the whole day and part of the next puking my brains out.

i still made sure that the kidlets had fun. we met one of my girlfriends and her daughter at this really great little diner called the creamery. their food is wonderful. it's all homemade diner type food. they even make their own ice dream. and their sweet potato fries are heavenly. the kidlets def enjoyed themselves.
me, i didn't get to eat, because of the my stomach's spectacular acrobatics. i did however, take my noms home and the kidlets ate that later, so it wasn't a total waste to go ahead and order, and at least look like i intended to eat.
i had wanted to take them shopping, but instead we laid around and watched movies all day. how many times can you watch transformers in one day without losing you mind? you ask... i have no idea. they loved it though and since i was already without said mind, it was fine.

hey, soul sister

hey, heeeeyy, heeeyyy... hey, soul sister :)

again, my friends are flippin amazing! when stupid sh*t happens in my life, here they are to help pick up the pieces... and i love them for it.

mg and i text or talk several times a day, everyday. she is as close to a sister to me as my own sister. we've known each other since we were 13. that's a long freakin time! in dog years, that's like more than 100yrs.
dude! we're getting old.
well, yesterday we were texting about all the lamerific stuff that's been going on recently and she said "you deserve better and he deserves to be b*tch slapped". she's awesome like that, just tells it like it is. but she is SO right! i do deserve better. there, i've said it. i deserve to have someone be honest with me, that's like a total deal breaker.

anyway, i've been meaning to post this, but i wanted to make it at least one more good time to make sure i had it just right. so i made it last night and it was heaven on a plate.

heaven on a plate a.k.a. spinach and pesto chicken quiche
adapted from pillsbury

ingredients:
1 refrigerated pie crust
1lb cooked pesto chicken cut or shredded into bite size pieces
1box frozen spinach, thawed
1/2c shredded colby jack cheese
1/2c shredded sharp cheddar cheese
1/2c shredded parmigiano cheese
4 eggs
1c light sour cream
2tbs milk(i used soy milk)
1/2tsp salt
1/2tsp pepper
1/2tsp dry ground mustard

for the pesto chicken, i wanted to make it a little more figure friendly so i mixed garlic salt, black pepper and dry basil together and seasoned the chicken with that before browning it in olive oil.


layer chicken, spinach and cheese into the pie crust.
beat eggs, sour cream, milk and spices together until smooth.
pour egg mixture over the chicken, spinach and cheese.
bake at 375 for 35 to 45 min until it's not jiggly and a knife inserted in the center comes out clean.

the recipe says it's supposed to serve 6, but i think it could easily serve 8 for a nice lunch with a salad.


i had mine with a salad of baby greens and a glass of white zinfandel. yum!

[hearts] for las chicas!!

i need a hug... or something

homesick, home sick, sick for home... *sigh*

i'm def sad and sick and still so OMG about this whole situation.

"And that's what adulthood is: you wake from the nightmare and realize there's no bigger bed to climb into." ~john mayer via twitter

huh...

my weekend was so odd. things were calm and good, then they were bad and i was yelling. by the end of it i'd made a complete a** of myself and lost my phone. oh and rt told fr to stay away from me. (i have hearts for her for doing that) she's the kind of friend a girl needs.
did anyone else know that his ex had moved back into his house with him?? in october?! cause i didn't until he told me last week. that was def my big FML moment for the year.

thankyouverymuch

i think i'm at that point that you get to where things are just so wrong that you just want to go home to mommy. i need right now, not anything in particular, just need.

a slightly more health conscious baked potato

i am an avid reader of food blogs and well, other blogs too. but i was inspired to harden my arteries by my friend saint tigerlily. she always has super fun ideas :) so in honor of saint tigerlily's overstuffed potatoes i made my own version.




i used red potatoes instead of russets to start with 1) because they are smaller(yay for smaller portions!) and 2) because they are sweeter, so the kidlets like them.

the toppings included:

diced turkey kielbasa
garlicky spinach
light sour cream
cheddar jack cheese
and diced tomatoes

i served it with a strawberry and spinach salad. because yeah, strawberries + pepper = awesome.

this was a great weeknight supper. super easy and super fast, plus i have leftovers if i want to make it again this week. the girl wasn't really impressed with the spinach, but she liked everything else. and the boy was all over the spinach and kielbasa, so this meal was def FTW.

p.s. not the clearest pic, i know. i'm having issues with uploading pics... so bear with me *wink*

no lo entiendo (i don't understand)

sometimes it is SO HARD to be strong for someone else, especially when you're trying even harder not to fall apart yourself.

i feel like i'm totally losing it today... i'm just a huge mix of well, EVERYTHING. ugh.
this weekend was very blah. we were pretty much snowed in the whole time. (btw, i officially HATE snow.) i'm so over this not being able to get out of the house thing that is winter. since the roads were pretty hazardous, i didn't get to have my face to face with fr. not that i know what i would have said to him anyway, but still.
i'm struggling pretty bad this week. i'm trying so hard to take my own damn advice and think positively. i want so badly to be in a good mood. but today, i'm tired. i haven't slept well the last 2 or 3 nights. i'm cranky and anxious. those 2 things aren't so pretty on me. funny thing, when i get this stressed and anxious, i actually start thinking and cussing in spanish. idk why, i just do. must be the latin thing, i guess. yo no se.

how sad is it that, yesterday i actually went and got my hair trimmed to kind of spunk it up. it did put me in a better mood... for about a minute. i've tried it all. i thought maybe some retail therapy might help, but it didn't. though, i did get a pair of really cute wedges on sale. i'm talking about $45 shoes for $8, seriously?! why am i not just elated?? *sigh*

i'm just not myself right now, that's all i know.