Wednesday, July 29, 2009


this is my third attempt at posting...

so here it goes. officially i don't know what the h* is going on.
they closed the club where i was working. i've been catching up with an old friend. i've met new people. i did finally talk to ts( that is a whole nother complicated mess). bh is def getting a divorce.
and i'm surprisingly calm about all of it...

the drama has left me. i see anything stressful at this point as 'not my problem'. i can only do one thing at a time. so that's what i'm doing...

Thursday, July 23, 2009

plz leave me alone!

is there any misunderstanding those words?? really? is there? cause i thought that was pretty clear, when i sent that text on monday afternoon.
so then why i ask is ts still bothering me?? last night he sent me a text at 11:30. what's up with that? i didn't respond to said text, but still... why won't he stop?

in other news: i think me and of are all better now, for the most part anyway... i missed my bff!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

what next??

ok, freaky! sunday i posted pics of my car and my flat tires on facebook. i was so upset and so angry that i felt it was justified. yesterday i got a call/vcmail(since i wont answer) from ts telling me that he's seen them and that i needed to take them down. he also said that he knew that i sent friend requests to a couple of the friends on friday. i could see how he would know that i sent friends requests, but how the h* did he see the pics? the only mutual friend that was on there wasn't even home and i know she wouldn't have shown him anything.
after some investigating, i'm starting to think that maybe he had my password somehow. they weren't hard to figure out though. passwords have now been changed!

in other news: i heard from fr on sunday. he's dealing with alot right now with the death of his son. please keep him in your prayers. he was sweet and told how awesome i am :) i hope to hear from him again in a few days when he gets back from a trip.

p.s. just so you know fr and i are not 'involved', just friends for now. i like him and we have fun together, but i'm not planning on attaching myself to anyone again for a long time to come.

Sunday, July 19, 2009


dude came to my apartment this morning after i got home from working my second job and let all the air out of my tires.
in the span of an hour and a half he vandalized me car!


Friday, July 17, 2009

say what???

for reals... did anyone else know that ts was stalking me?? cause i sure as h* didn'!?! omg!!!
i'm still in shock!!
i found out soooo much stuff last night. and now i'm a little freaked out! how do i get mixed up with these guys??
WOW!!! all i can say is WOW!!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

we start again...

the is the NEW and IMPROVED thoughts from me...
i know, i have no imagination for titles sometimes. but hey, it's what i've got to work with today. it's been a really rough week, so cut me some slack.

i've decided to post this newer version of my blog for the simple fact that i feel as if the last one shared waaaay too much. those were my private thoughts and rantings. most of it didn't make sense the way i wanted it to unless you(the reader) could pretty much read my mind. i think there are only like 2 people on the planet that could do that right now. so, i put my first blogbaby to bed one last time.

the last couple of weeks have been very hard on me. the quick run down is this:

ts and i have had too many ups and downs to count. this has pretty much devastated me. too many downs!

of has decided to delete me from his life. i was extremely upset about it yesterday. today, i'm not that upset anymore. true friends love you unconditionally, regardless of what kind of choices you might make concerning their advice.

a good friend of mine lost his child. i'm sad for him.

bh decided to give up his visitation with the girl. i'm starting to think that she's probably better off without him.

so many other things have happened the last couple of weeks, it's just been unreal.

p.s. just to elaborate on the oversharing: i feel like i was sharing info that i wouldn't necessarily want just anyone to know. if i seem vague at times please feel free to ask questions in a private message.