Saturday, August 28, 2010

talking to the moon

hey kids, sorry to leave you hanging all week...

it's been a really rough week. lots of tears and late nights. maybe i'll be able to tell you about it one day.

i leave you with something sad and pretty...

Monday, August 23, 2010

monday minute: a need for speed

umm... today, i got nothing...

i had an eventful weekend, but we'll get to that later. i still have some more info to collect.
so today is the monday minute. and we have new hosts. exciting!

here it is...

Monday Minute

favorite 80s flick?
16 candles was def one of my faves, but princess bride is my A#1. i'm such a geek, that still quote it.

one genre of music needs to be banned. which genre?
i'm a big fan of pretty much everything, but maybe screamo... i don't really dig on all the anger involved with it.

all time favorite candy?
def dark chocolate raspberry creams from see's candies. they're so awesome! and since they're only made in california, my mom sends me a box of them for holidays and special occasions.
she loves me...

how 'flawed' is your driving record?
me, it's not too bad. mostly just sprinkled with speeding ticket... mama's got a need for speed!!

what was your high school mascot?
lions! i was a cheerleader, so i still chant L-I-O-N-S in my sleep sometimes. i know! i'm a lil nutty.

and finally...

what color socks are you wearing?
umm... yeah... that... i work in an office, so no socks. it's black patent leather heels today :)

hope you all have a great week!!

thank you to our hosts heather and melissa!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

no one is watching

it's been a long day.

it's late.
i've had a glass of wine.
music is playing.
the wine warms me.
i take my hair down.
i like the way it feels on my skin.

i touch your face.
i kiss your lips.
you taste like strawberries.
you smile.
i bite your lip.

soft skin.
pulling hair.
little nibbles.
twisted sheets.
deep breath.


Monday, August 16, 2010


begin at the beginning and go till the end, then stop ~alice in wonderland

i had this whole post ready to publish that was about secrets and love, but i think i will save it for another day. today i am going to tell you about my weekend, like i used to.

friday was super fun! fr's show was canceled because of a scheduling mix up, so some of us got together and saw another cover band in the next town over.

late night + alcohol + awesome friends = great times!!

saturday was when things just kept getting better. the kidlets and i made a super yummy breakfast of ham and cheese omelets and biscuits and gravy. i love it when we have quiet mornings at home! we had a great afternoon at a friend's son's birthday/pool party.

saturday night i drove to bristol to see fr's band play. i love out of town gigs with them! they kicked a*!! they had new songs, including this one by the cure that i just adore!

and you know the best times are at the band house :)

my night and morning and day were wonderful and beautiful and sad. (we'll save the sad for later though) fr is amazing! just amazing...
once we were together, we occupied the same space as if that was the norm. it was US. if it hadn't been for certain things that i'll address later i would have been glowing like i was radioactive all the way home.

Friday, August 13, 2010

friday the 13th!

AAAAAAHHHH!!! it's freaky friday the 13th!!

don't get scared!

i'm not really superstitious... i just think it's funny what people put into days like this.


ok! i'm done... for now.

it's been a long week. hope you all have a fabulous weekend!!

now, can somebody please pour me something??

also, here's my fun song for the week... cherry lips by garbage!

Monday, August 9, 2010

monday minute: crying would take too long

lest i procrastinate any longer, here is the monday minute...

Monday Minute

what was your "oh no, i'm turning into my mom/dad" moment?
i think that was the first time i answered a question with the phrase "because i said so"

what current commercial do you find the most annoying/funny?
ha! the new taco bell commercials are hilarious! "i am de lime..."

it you could only eat one color food for the rest of your life what would that be?
i think brown would work for me. i'm big into protein, beans and meat are brown and so is a&w root beer(my weakness)

what is your current facebook/myspace/twitter status?
facebook/myspace : is restringing her air guitar...
twitter: quote of the day: today is one of those days where i have to laugh... crying would take too long.

f, marry, kill from the list below. women pick from the men, men pick from the women.

  • snookie(from jersey shore), ellen degeneres, betty white
  • regis philbin, justin bieber, perez hilton
hmm... f perez hilton, because he's probably never been with a real woman. marry regis philbin, because duh! he probably spoils his wife. he just seems to have that kind of a personality. and lastly, kill justin bieber, because he's young enough that someday the girl could end up with a crush on him and we just can't have that! i know she's only 4yrs old, but she's already been informed that she can't date until she's married *wink*

so there it is...

thanks to our host ian at the daily dose of reality! hope you all have a great week! it can only get better from here... i hope!

the secret keeper

so... yeah... remember how i said that my brain was on hiatus?? well, she still kinda is.

there is all this stuff swirling around me that i can't write about. well, really i could write about it, but not here. i have recently become THE secret keeper for several of my friends. it used to be that they would come to me with little white lies or needing relationship advice or asking my honest opinion about a specific subject.

now, it's more serious than that. some of these secrets are sad and painful and are about fears and sickness. the thing about me is that i am empathic. i feel your sorrow and pain. i worry when you worry and i worry about you when i know something is wrong.

over the years i have tried to disconnect from that, but lately i feel like i'm open, like a wound that won't heal. i'm just wide open to this pain, like there is this huge crack in the wall that took me so long to build. i've been standing at this threshold for a long time. i've been looking at it and looking at it. if i flinch then i'm on the other side.

i flinched!

i'm there now(the physical toll is already apparent). i think i have been for the last month or so. i see myself grabbing for anything that i can get my hands on to pull myself back to the other side and back to sanity.

it's getting harder to hide it.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

on hiatus


so my brain, she is on hiatus this week. i'm not sure when she'll be coming back. i'm not really sure why either. stress, hormones, the need to be introverted or some other random thing i'm just not thinking about. of course, thinking about any one thing for very long is just too hard for me today. plus, it adds to this wicked headache i've been having for the last 3 days.

i'm sure i'll have more to say later, but the whole thinking thing it not working right now. *rubs temples*

Monday, August 2, 2010

monday minute: aspirations

so... yeah... the force is not with me today... i'm exhausted. i thought i was being all sneaky and catching up on my sleep this weekend, but insomnia caught up with me last night. i hate her! she outstays her welcome EVERY time she comes around... ugh! oh well, maybe i'll get the best of her next time.

so here's the monday minute. crossing my fingers that it makes sense.

Monday Minute

describe your life in one word.

is there something you wish you had learned how to do as a child?
yes, i wish i'd learned how to play the piano. as you know, i'm in love with music. i wish i could do more than just sing.

who has been the biggest influence on your life?
looking back, it was probably the collective of women in my life that have influenced me the most. they've helped me see how it is to be soft and strong and breezy and smart all at the same time.

what is your greatest dream/hope/aspiration?
i can't really say what that is at this point in my life. my hopes and dreams keep changing and growing.

and finally...

do you believe you have reached your potential? why/why not?
no, not at all. i'm def a work in progress. i'm learning and growing every day. that's not going to change anytime soon.

thanks to our host ian over at the daily dose of reality!

now go out there and have a great week!!

p.s. if you run into that b*tch insomnia, would you give her a quick elbow to the sternum? kthanxbai :)