most of the time

... or heels or pajamas or naked or whatever. life is just better. in a way, better than it has been in a long time.

i'm really liking the way things are going, not always but most of the time. i'm healthy, my babies are healthy and i don't have much to b*tch about these days. i am content with that.
work is going well. i stay crazy busy, but my oil rig guys are good to me. the caterer only brings me in for the big jobs since i can only work weekends, so i get to be off this weekend. it's been nice to have the time to catch up on life just a bit.
it's been nice to have someone to kiss goodnight lately. he's been trying to get me off coffee and we all know that's probably not gonna happen. it's cute to listen to him try though. my favorite is when we slide down his wood floors in our socks.

so maybe life is better in socks...

i did that

ha. i did that!
... i didn't steal anything. i ran! i did my first 5k last month with a couple of my girlies and it was amazing!!! i can't wait for my next one.
these days i run anywhere between 20 and 30 miles a week and i feel great. as with the natural progression of fitness, i've tried a lot of different types of workouts; yoga, crossfit, hiit and now i've started weightlifting. i'm diggin' it! i like the variety and to challenge myself.

in other news: i started a new job about a month ago for a local construction company as a bookkeeper. i'm pretty excited about it. i decided to keep my job with the caterer, so i work 6 and 7 days a week. working as much as i do and going to the gym as much as i do and taking care of my family keeps me pretty busy. busy is good for me.
as always, there are things and people that pop up and throw a wrench into my machine, but things are going pretty smoothly. there are people that i miss from my old life, but i know that they weren't meant to progress with me to this point.
new friendships, old friendships and maybe even a budding relationship... i'm feeling pretty blessed to have these people in my life. i'm not always happy, but i'm getting there.

this positive feeling

the course of true love never did run smooth ~ william shakespeare

i had every intention of making this post into a 'so random', but then started my media player and decided against it.

things have been rough the last few months, but i truly feel like they are starting to get better. this positive feeling is due to a lot of things.

i started a new job last week. i don't know if i had realized that i had even applied for it. i got called on monday to interview tuesday and was offered the job within the first 10min of the interview. it was crazy. they told me that i had all of the qualifications that they had been looking for. i filled out paper work that wednesday and started training that thursday. that's it. and i totally love my job and the people that i work with!

in other news: i finally got my car back today after having to have extensive work done to it. it turns out that someone had been siphoning gas out of my gas tank and had messed up the fuel pump. and that was just a week after getting it back from having the power steering pump and a bunch of other stuff replaced.

in other other news: my mom is coming to visit next month for like a week. i'm so excited about that. i haven't seen her since she was here last summer.

i've been incredibly home sick and have actually considered moving back home to california. i don't really know why now, but it's something that her and i are going to discuss when she's here.

the best part: my time with fr has become more consistent and meaningful lately. this makes me happy. i love it when we get to just talk and carry on about life.

oh, how that man makes me laugh... he's nothing less than amazing!

*dreamy grin* i love it when he sings to me and sways with me :)

where did the time go?

anything is possible with the right attitude and a sledgehammer...

ha! sometimes i feel like i'm running around with a sledgehammer in my hand. other times i feel like i'm not getting anything done.
time is getting away from me. i've been so crazy busy lately with this new job, that it seems like the last 3 or 4 weeks have run into each other. i'm not sure how i feel about that right now.

i do know that i'm missing things. i haven't had time for anything other than work and my few hours here and there with the kidlets. *sigh*

freakin virus

i miss my interwebz! i wrote this post on actual paper. crazy, right!
seriously, though... ACTUAL. PAPER.

i got back to my desk yesterday after lunch and got all comfy and logged in. and soon as i did, my 'puter started being retarded. ugh! it's got a freakin virus. WTF
here, my company pays all these thousands of dollars for anti-virus software and everything to go along with it, and i get a virus on my computer?? stoooopid!!
what's worse is that i don't know when i'll get my computer back. dude! this whole using paper for everything is seriously throwing me off. you know what that means, don't you? i think that means i need to lay off the computer, because it's like an addiction and i'm going through withdrawls. *sigh*

now that i think about it i have kinda become a hermit and have been told that by a couple of my close friends. i guess i need to quit living my life through the internet. i thought i had a pretty good balance going, but apparently not. esp if i have anxiety about not being able to check my email and such from work. or do actual work. geeze

in other news: i'm so A.D.D. today. i'm so used to multi-tasking that i'm flipping through a magazine while writing this.
i have run across some great recipes. but in the middle of reading one, i glanced over at the next page and saw a grill press. and now... i totally need one! not only am i writing and reading a mag, but i'm texting like 3 different people AND answering the phone. (as answering the phone is part of my job as a receptionist.)
i think i need to figure out a way to focus myself more. or at least find something to do with all this nervous energy.

in other other news: i just read this great article about megan fox in cosmo (see! attention span of a gold fish). i didn't really like her at first. it could be because i've only seen her in supporting roles or maybe that i've never really paid any attention to her. i assumed that she was just another plastic starlet. surprisingly, she's a pretty ballsy, outspoken chick. i like that. we should all be so confident.

remember when...

remember when guys wanted to date you, because they thought you were a cool chick to chill with?? when relationships were fun and innocent... no pressure. anybody? well, i do and i want that. i realize that i'm not in my early 20's anymore, but that doesn't mean that every man i flirt with wants to sleep with me.... does it? more on that later, i guess.

in other news: i've had kind of a hazy weekend. it was a 3 day weekend, but went by way too fast. friday was pretty uneventful, but saturday was crazy fun. i went to go see fr's band play for a few min before having to go into work at the club. ugh. i was sooo nervous for some reason, i was actually shaking. i had a shot of jeager when i got there, just to calm my nerves. i left there and had a great night at work.
something made me decided to go back when i was done. i'm glad i did. fr ended up coming over after they'd gotten everything packed up. it was nice... we just sat and talked. we were able to talk about all sorts of things. i'm glad that fr feels like he can talk to me. he told me about quiting drinking and all the emotional stuff that he's been going through. i really wish that there was something more that i could do to help him other than being just a sympathetic ear. all in all it was a good talk though.

terrible memory

geeze, why didn't i post more than once last week?? i should have.... i think. i have such a terrible memory. ha. i actually have to go back and consult my calendar.

oh, ok. i see what happened... i had order of protection court on thursday. that must have eaten up most of my day. not actual court, but updating everybody and checking in i guess. idk.
thursday night, i got to have a girl's night with lb. and of course, we had lots of fun! we went to a adult party at a friends house and then out to see my fav band play. i had a great time.

in other news: i got to see fr. we talked a lot about everything that is going on with him. he's still having a very hard time with the death of his son. i just can't imagine what he is going through...

in other other news: i got a new second job!! yay me! i started working at another club on saturdays. it was great! it was what i thought it should be. a total blast!