sometimes it is SO HARD to be strong for someone else, especially when you're trying even harder not to fall apart yourself.
i feel like i'm totally losing it today... i'm just a huge mix of well, EVERYTHING. ugh.
this weekend was very blah. we were pretty much snowed in the whole time. (btw, i officially HATE snow.) i'm so over this not being able to get out of the house thing that is winter. since the roads were pretty hazardous, i didn't get to have my face to face with fr. not that i know what i would have said to him anyway, but still.
i'm struggling pretty bad this week. i'm trying so hard to take my own damn advice and think positively. i want so badly to be in a good mood. but today, i'm tired. i haven't slept well the last 2 or 3 nights. i'm cranky and anxious. those 2 things aren't so pretty on me. funny thing, when i get this stressed and anxious, i actually start thinking and cussing in spanish. idk why, i just do. must be the latin thing, i guess. yo no se.
how sad is it that, yesterday i actually went and got my hair trimmed to kind of spunk it up. it did put me in a better mood... for about a minute. i've tried it all. i thought maybe some retail therapy might help, but it didn't. though, i did get a pair of really cute wedges on sale. i'm talking about $45 shoes for $8, seriously?! why am i not just elated?? *sigh*
i'm just not myself right now, that's all i know.